Hello my lovelies, this is the last secret, goodbye!
My poetry was good, my photography was rubbish, and my prose was okay.
My feedback wasn't quite what I was looking for, but I learnt my art is for me, and watches, favourites they mean fuck all, I mean wow 80 something watchers. I would like to thank 90% of you for added me out of politeness, but its okay, I don't need nor want a big list, so you can remove yourselves now if you wish...
Favourites? I mean I realised, weather an individual likes or can relate to something, doesn't make it good nor bad, so listen to your comments/critiques, they are a b o u t the work, and not you nor the other person.
I mean how often is it I’ve found myself browsing dA and I come across a site and some guy/girl has submitted let's say ten poems, and they don't have a clue what they are doing, and submit it 'cause it's a section in ''submit' and some of them are really arrogant, and everybody leading them on with their favourites. 'wow emotional', 'deep dude', 'awesome' 'wow so powerful' and that's it, when they don't have a clue what they are saying, I do have to laugh when people say ''nice flow'' when in fact it didn't, so you have your say and nicely, and you don't get, wow thanks reply like everyone else and instead get a really cheeky remark! It's just so messed up, but it doesn't matter really does it? SO that's just to prove to you; you may only have one favourite or none, but that does not make you a bad artist! Nor a good one!
People get so caught up in it, they forget it's their art for themselves, otherwise it became ''apathetic art'', which practically strips a r t of all meaning, (and personally I HATE) and I think it ''brings peoples standards down' anyway if that was my problem well that wouldn't be reason enough to quit dA. I thought for a while I wanted critique, and then for a while that I didn't. Or maybe it is the fact that I'm cutting myself off from people more, and more and my work is for me, and I no longer care what others opinions 'cause it's confusing 'cause it's me, so it's pointless for others to see. 'Cause 'critiques' I got not to often, actually way less than I should have and either didn't apply to me in my opinion, or did nothing, 'cause I only learn by giving critique, and in the hopes, of giving someone what they want, like what I wanted. And I believe that 99% of the time people really, really don't/didn't understand me, but that's okay.

Anyway I remember the reason I joined this site
And it was for the simple reason
The last secret

I was here before on deviantart, and deviantart has this special meaning to me, no one in the world could understand and I couldn’t even begin explaining, how much I love being here but hate it, I think I am just addicted, but it has this meaning to me, and it’s not just an a r t site, or a place to run away to, it has this special little meaning my slowly fucking-up brain could not even begin to explain. I know I’m not normal. I’ve excepted it. But it’s time once again to move on. Weird, weird, weird, weird, weird.

So in all honesty I haven't anything to thank you for, but technically I do, which once again makes no sense, and you shall take from it want you want, and that I cannot stop

remember your feelings are yours
your art is for you
and goodbye
x